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Bad Weird Feeling

Something is wrong with me, and it doesn’t seem like it’s endo (although endo has surprised me before with it’s vast and diverse portfolio of ways to torture me).

I woke up this morning feeling weird and bad. I feel extremely nauseous, though I have yet to throw up. I actually tried a little, and I even took emitrol which is a good indicator of how completely terrible I must be feeling. Emitrol is disgusting. My stomach hurts a lot, but not in the usual endo ways. It feels like I was doing sit ups, coughing, and shivering all night. My abs are on fire. My lower back is also killing me. It hurts most of all, though I’m pretty sure that the culprit there is slouching all day and sleeping in the fetal position. I haven’t tried eating, but drinking water and sprite makes the nausea unbearable. The only thing that helps is sleep. I slept until about 12:30, and by golly I want to sleep some more, but I just can’t anymore.

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But remember kids, there’s no such thing as too sick to vote!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? I want to call my doctor, but I feel bad doing that because if he wants me to come in I know there is no way I can make the hour long journey right now. So what can he do? Why bother him?

I feel horrible for taking the day off. It’s one of those days where I’m pretty sure I could drag myself to the office, and be awake and lucid and do good work, but I feel soo bad, and I’d rather feel soo bad in my bed than at my desk.

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This is why it’s so hard to decide to take a day off

Part of the reason I feel so guilty is that I don’t know what’s wrong. I feel like my husband doesn’t really believe me, and heck, I feel like I don’t completely believe myself. So on top of feeling physically all bent out of shape, mentally I’m a guilt-wrought wreck as well.

I think I have some kind of gastrointestinal issue. I’ve thought so for a while now, as I go through periods of experiencing pain after eating and heartburn and indigestion. But my horrible experience with Dr. Rogoff has discouraged me from pursuing diagnosis further. Plus, a lot of those symptoms could just be endo, which also throws a wrench in things.

Anyway, in conclusion, whaaaaa I feel bad and I just want to sleep more!!! Someone tell me what to do!!!

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About rachelmeeks

My name is Rachel Meeks. I have endometriosis, an incurable pain condition, IBS, a digestive illness, and PCOS, which causes irregular periods and infertility. After keeping my illnesses a secret, I started to get upset about how my fellow sick people were being mistreated because of ignorance. I knew that I'd need to stand up, make some noise, wear my heart on my sleeve, and admit that I am not well to make a difference.

17 responses to “Bad Weird Feeling

  1. mo

    Do you think this has anything to do with what you had over Halloween? It happens…you think you are better and then WHAM it hits you again. Pain is not good! Go back to bed and
    rest, my Mom always used to say “rest heals you”. Feel better soon.

    • It may be, it just feels so different. Although I did throw up over Halloween. In any case, I seem to be on the mend now. My theory is that my body was just detoxing from all the meds I was taking over Halloween.

      By the way, have you had a chance to pick out your prize for the t-shirt contest? Please send me your address asap so I can order prizes for all the winners!

  2. kmtreat

    I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. Pain definitely is not a good thing. If you need to sleep to feel better, SLEEP. Take care of yourself.

  3. Tracy Rydzy, MSW, LSW ⋅

    I’m sorry to hear that…take care of yourself. If you are tired your body is telling you to take it easy, listen to it!

    • Thanks so much for the well-wishes. I’ve been doing a lot of resting while trying to keep schoolwork under control. Hopefully I’ll be able to give you all a better update soon. Thanks for the support!

  4. Rach, forget all the guilt. If you hurt, you hurt, and that’s what you need to focus on. You come 1st in your life — nothing outside Rachel is even available to Rachel if she can’t function. So take care of your body and mind best you can, seeking effective help, then you can focus on life and those around you. There’s nothing to feel guilty about in taking care of yourself. Everyone must do that on some level, so they can’t rightfully blame you for doing the same. Best, Cary

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  6. danielle

    Wow! i just found your website today through endohope.org’s site. I have an unconfirmed (will be done via surgery) diagnosis of endo as of 2 weeks ago. My stomach has been a mess for much longer. I have Celiacs, but was thinking that I had developed allergies to other foods like rice/potatoes/corn (a gluten free person’s alternatives). Luckily, I just think that the issue is having to do with the endo. I am nauseated almost constantly and for almost 2 weeks my stomach was spasming at all times. This resulted in me feeling that I had been doing non-stop ab exercises.

    The nausea and spasming only stopped with a trip to the ER and some strong anti-nausea meds. This is neither easy nor cheap, but it worked. Since the last trip to the ER, my stomach spasms for only a few hours at a time if I have a coughing fit. None of my docs (i have 3 now that I have diagnosed endo) have been surprised by this extreme nausea.

    I have found that I can eat, but only in small portions. I also find that I only eat when I must such as when I’m taking pain meds. I have hopes that this will improve over time, but that time hasn’t come yet.

    Hope this is quickly resolved for you! Would love to know what the doc says!

    • Hey!

      So I wrote you a really, really long and detailed response to this….and it all got deleted and died. So I’ll sum up, less eloquently than before.

      After the first time I tried to get this stomach stuff diagnosed, a lot of people told me it might be endo. My GI doc was being frustrating, so I gave up and had my second surgery for endo. It didn’t relieve very much, so I’m thinking it’s probably endo + something else.

      Since my last surgery was so disappointing, I’ve decided it’s time to get rid of endo once and for all, and the only chance at that (without removing your uterus) is pregnancy, so that’s what me, hubby, and doctor have decided is best. Doc says that there’s an 80% chance it’ll be cured, and even if it doesn’t, it should provide more relief than surgery would.

      Reading your symptoms, I think that Bentyl (an anti-spasm medicine that I’m taking) could help you a lot. The general doctor I saw said that it should help a lot with digestive discomfort and endo pain – two birds with one stone! Anyway, you should ask your doc about any anti-spasm meds. I would warn, though, that I took one before that was for uterus/bladder spasms, and that made me so sick I though I would die. Bentyl is for your intestines, which usually end up having endo on them, and when they spasm it whacks the endo and that’s no fun for anyone.

      I think you ought to go ahead and have the surgery too. My first one left me symptom-free for three whole years – not bad! Let me know if you do – I hope you feel better soon too!

      I’m going to the GI specialist tomorrow – I’ll try and post asap what he says. πŸ™‚

  7. Fantastic info and entertainingly written. Keep up the superb stuff!

  8. Auping

    I hope you feel better soon!

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